Such a horrible experience and one nobody should ever have to go thru. Sadly the odds are high 85 % of pregnancys will end in miscarriage in the 1st trimester.
People don’t tend to talk about miscarriage. It almost feels like something to be ashamed of , or is it just that the hurt is so extreme you just can’t talk about it with anyone.
Some of you will know from my previous posts that I had 2 back in 2013 before we were blessed with Max. Well I actually had what’s called a missed miscarriage. That’s when the baby has gone but it doesn’t get picked up untill your scan.
Sometimes I think to myself was I lucky not to have a natural miscarriage, was I spared in some way. The answer is NO I wasn’t spared, each time I was told it hadn’t worked out at my scan I felt liked my heart had been ripped out.
We didn’t have Max then so it left me pretty empty and bitter.
Were thinking about having a second baby now and it really just brings home that it could happen again . We could put ourselves thru that heartache again. Will this stop me trying for a second child no I don’t think so.
Should the same happen again would I be able to move on and try again. The answer I think is yes. I’m a very lucky girl,I’m married I live a comfortable life and I have a amazing son who brings nothing but light into my life.
I come from a large family and it’s important to me to have a good family unit. I see max with his cousin and I think yes I want him to have a little brother and sister to love and cherish.
We’ll just have to live by the old motto from before :
Expect the worst and hope for the best.